http://www.slim-fast.com/members/mustangnana/default.aspxmustangnana's Announcementsen-USTelligent Evolution 5.0 SP1 (Build: 40807.7666)http://www.slim-fast.com/members/mustangnana/announcements/default.aspxWed, 10 Mar 2010 23:21:38 GMTb27fbe55-a45c-486c-8a8b-9ae2ace276c5:d869f6e0-51c2-4c60-9766-5245e5fbc72cmustangnana<p>Today is March 10,2010</p> <p>Tomorrow is the day slim fast launches its new website. I am just praying that I don&#39;t lose my journal. I am sure there will be some helpful things on there but I have worked hard on this. If they delete my journal I guess that I will have to start all over again but this time I am going to start my own blog. I will just have to figure out how to go about it. Oh well, I guess we will just have to wait and see what tomorrow holds.</p> <p>Today was a very trying day.&nbsp;My daughters ex-husband took her back to court today and she wanted me to go for moral support. We did not eat before we left and I did not take my fluid pill because the last thing I needed was to be running in and out of the court room. We finally got out at one this afternoon and since I had gotten a gift card to cracker barrel for Christmas&nbsp;that is where we went to eat. My one and only meal was a rib eye steak, steak fries [small portion], mac and cheese, and brocolli cassarole with diet coke. I am drinking coffee and getting ready to start on some lemon water since tomorrow is weigh in day. I was up all night running to the bathroom but I may have messed all of that up with my one meal.&nbsp; I hope not.</p> <p>Dear God, thank you for this beautiful day that is coming to a close. Thank you for your strength on my journey this past week. I feel like I did good this week even with the one meal I had today. Help me continue to stay strong on this journey. I want to be able to get out and do a lot of walking up and down my driveway since the days are getting warmer. Be with my slim fast buddies help them to draw strength from you for this journey. Bless and watch over my family. In Jesus name I pray, Amen</p> <p>Have a blessed night everybody. Hope everything is going well for all of you.&nbsp; Kaye</p>http://www.slim-fast.com/members/mustangnana/announcements/default.aspxTue, 09 Mar 2010 16:09:17 GMTb27fbe55-a45c-486c-8a8b-9ae2ace276c5:2a6e5f9b-fd34-4ff7-b894-8027c54e625dmustangnana<p>Today is Tuesday March 9,2010</p> <p>I am really getting bad about not doing this every day. Yesterday was a fairly good day. Started drinking on my hot lemonade again and spent a lot of time in the bathroom. Once the fluid starts moving out than it is easier to do things I need to do like the treadmill or just getting outside and doing some walking out there since it is getting pretty. [finally]&nbsp; It took two days to update my picture. When I tried I lost my old picture and my biography. This morning I was finally able to upload&nbsp; a new picture and then I was able to get my biography back which I had to rewrite. I am just hoping and praying that the new lauch slim fast is doing the 11th of this month does not erase this page. I have worked to hard on this journal for them to just delete it. I tried calling the 800 number and was put on hold so long I finally just sent them an email and ask if our profile page would be touched. I&nbsp;explained how long and hard I have worked on this journal that I go back and reread sometimes when I need to see how far the lord has brought me. Just waiting on an answer from them. I may have to print out my journal. That will take a long time and lots of paper as long as it is. Guess I will just have to wait and see what slim fast does in two days. I hope everybody has a blessed day.&nbsp; Kaye</p>http://www.slim-fast.com/members/mustangnana/announcements/default.aspxTue, 09 Mar 2010 16:09:17 GMTb27fbe55-a45c-486c-8a8b-9ae2ace276c5:248b0b09-f37a-4e13-8580-1be0fb64b7bamustangnana<p>Today is Tuesday March 9,2010</p> <p>I am really getting bad about not doing this every day. Yesterday was a fairly good day. Started drinking on my hot lemonade again and spent a lot of time in the bathroom. Once the fluid starts moving out than it is easier to do things I need to do like the treadmill or just getting outside and doing some walking out there since it is getting pretty. [finally]&nbsp; It took two days to update my picture. When I tried I lost my old picture and my biography. This morning I was finally able to upload&nbsp; a new picture and then I was able to get my biography back which I had to rewrite. I am just hoping and praying that the new lauch slim fast is doing the 11th of this month does not erase this page. I have worked to hard on this journal for them to just delete it. I tried calling the 800 number and was put on hold so long I finally just sent them an email and ask if our profile page would be touched. I&nbsp;explained how long and hard I have worked on this journal that I go back and reread sometimes when I need to see how far the lord has brought me. Just waiting on an answer from them. I may have to print out my journal. That will take a long time and lots of paper as long as it is. Guess I will just have to wait and see what slim fast does in two days. I hope everybody has a blessed day.&nbsp; Kaye</p>http://www.slim-fast.com/members/mustangnana/announcements/default.aspxSat, 06 Mar 2010 01:29:08 GMTb27fbe55-a45c-486c-8a8b-9ae2ace276c5:09b14529-e050-4e0b-bb7f-d242da4d8c6emustangnana<p>Today is Friday March 5,2010</p> <p>Today was weigh in day and it is not good. Gained another pound this week. I know that I have ate some things that I should not but I am an emotional eater and waiting for test results to come back was hard. I got my test results back Wednesday and the report was good. Nothing showed up excepted that the left side of my&nbsp;brain was inflamed. I have not had my hot lemonade in two weeks. My husband thought that was what was causing these spells that I am having now. The neurologist thought I might be dehydrating. So when I had blood work done he has them check that also. I am not dehydrating so I ask him if I could go back to my hot lemonade and he said just a little. That with all the fluid coming out with my fluid pills if I drank much of it that it could pull out too much fluid.&nbsp; I am trying to get back on track but it seems everything is working against me. No, I guess the fact is I am just to weak and my willpower has gone. The only thing that has kept me from gaining all of this weight back is staying accountable to all of you. Tomorrow is another day. Another chance to start over again tomorrow. Wish me luck buddies. I need all the luck and especially all the prayers I can get..</p> <p>Dear God, I need your strength so much. I know that I am weak when it comes to my journey. I need your strength to carry me thru. Help me to stay strong to my journey and make all the right choices. I need to lose this weight so I can be healthy and strong. Help my slim fast family on their journey. Give them the strength that they need also to make their journey a success. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.</p> <p>&nbsp;</p>http://www.slim-fast.com/members/mustangnana/announcements/default.aspxFri, 26 Feb 2010 10:35:17 GMTb27fbe55-a45c-486c-8a8b-9ae2ace276c5:82ca01d7-f19f-44f0-9c60-4ffb218d601emustangnana<p>Today is Friday Feburary 26,2010</p> <p>I am back. Today was weigh in day. Since I am no longer able to drive I had to weigh at home. My daughter took me to my doctor to weigh two weeks ago but she goes in to early now so she can take me to doctors appointments so she can&#39;t take me. Last week I did not bother going to weigh. I was up at 4:30 drinking all the coffee I could, eating a toasted peanut buter sandwich with my hot slim fast. That is usually my lunch but since I could not have anything after seven a.m, I was getting everything in I could. Anyways, I now have to weigh at home on my digital scales since I can&#39;t weigh on the doctors. Was not looking forward to today. I have ate at Shoneys twice, had pizza twice just not&nbsp;making good decisions. Then I have also not had any hot lemonade in over a week. My husband thinks all the lemon juice has something to do with these spells I am having [going to get the doctors ok on that Wednesday]. So, in two weeks I have gained three pounds. Not bad. Would rather have lost but I don&#39;t know how far off these scales are from my doctors but I will have to just start weighing on these. So that is how my week has gone. Had another spell Wednesday night. On the computer when I started getting that feeling that comes before a seizure. Hard to explain. I just got a blanket and went to the couch with my husband and sleep for three hours until time to get up and go to bed. I can&#39;t wait for Wednesday until I get the results of all my test. It is hard living like this. Just keep me in your prayers.</p> <p>Dear God, thank you for the beginning of another day. Watch over and protect me. Help the doctors to find out why I am having these spells and show them what to do to help me. There is nothing I can do that I know of so I am putting my trust and faith in You to watch over me and to keep me safe. Help me and my other slim fast buddies on this weight loss journey we are on. Help us to follow the path that is before us that leads to a healthy mind and body. Give us Your strength for this journey that we are making. Help us to be a help to others that are just starting on this journey. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.</p> <p>Have a great day buddies. We are going to make it on this journey. We may get detoured along this way be we always find our way back to the path we need to be on. God bless each of you. Kaye</p>http://www.slim-fast.com/members/mustangnana/announcements/default.aspxMon, 22 Feb 2010 13:43:40 GMTb27fbe55-a45c-486c-8a8b-9ae2ace276c5:5c7c6ec6-3f56-430f-9ffe-8bca41aeb223mustangnana<p>Today is Monday Feburary 22,2010</p> <p>Well, it is Monday morning and the start of another week. Yesterday was a very good day. Got to go to church for the first time in four weeks. Had two great services yesterday morning and last night. I feel so much stronger. One thing I have not got back to doing is logging in all the food I eat. I am going to start that as soon as I get finiished here. I did it one day for breakfast and that was it. I can remember a time that I would not put anthing in my mouth until after it had had been logged in. So that is my goal today. To get back to that and make it to the grocery store today when my son gets in from work. Once again I have some errands that need to be taken care of and I am sitting here waiting for someone else to get off from work to take me. Enough of that I am not going to get myself all down thinking about this. I need to start moving forward.</p> <p>Hope everybody had a great week end. I need to get back to the treadmill but I have not got there yet. First thing to get control of is using my food journal to my advantage to tack my calories and sodium. Looking forward to a great week.</p> <p>Dear God, thank you for allowing me to go back to church yesterday. It was such a blessing and I feel so much more stronger than I have in a month. I know that while I was unable to go to church that You were still with me here but it helps to gain strength from my church family.&nbsp; Help me on my journey this week. Give me and my slim fast buddies the strength to make the right decisions when it comes to our food. Give us Your strength to follow the path that You have set for us to follow. Thank You for Your love and mercy and help each of us on our journey. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.</p> <p>Have a great week everybody and I will check back in soon. God bless each of you.&nbsp; Kaye</p>http://www.slim-fast.com/members/mustangnana/announcements/default.aspxSat, 20 Feb 2010 11:01:24 GMTb27fbe55-a45c-486c-8a8b-9ae2ace276c5:915e7bda-d6b7-4de3-989e-7afb978eacefmustangnana<p>Today is Saturday Feburary 20,2010</p> <p>I am going to try my hardest to get back to posting my journey every day. I have let up on it with all the things that have been going on in my life this month and the month before. Stella dying in January just seems to have set of a chain reaction of events that have sent my journey in different directions. Just when I think that I am healing from Stella&#39;s death in January then comes my first seizure in 15 years on the sixth of Feburary. That has caused a lot of change in my life. Going from a person who always drove where ever I needed to go to a person now dependends on people to take me where I need to go. Lots of doctors appointments, test at the hospital and a cold I got from my grandaughter that has kept me out of church for a month. I wish that I could say that I stayed strong thru all of this and have been making progress but the honest truth is I let siturtions set me on a path that does not go along with the journey I am&nbsp;on. I would like to look back and say I have stayed strong and continued right along on my journey but I can&#39;t say that. I have always said I will be completely honest with myself and the honest truth is I have let myself have a lot of eating binges. I am just thankful that I have not gained all my weight back. I didn&#39;t even make it to weigh yesterday. I could not have anything to eat of drink after seven yesterday morning so I was up at 4:30 drinking all the coffee I could, drinking some hot slim, and eating a toasted peanut butter sandwich. All of this with no fluid pill so I knew everything that was there was going to stay. When my husband and I left the hospital we stopped at Shoneys to eat. No I did not make healthy choices. Then my husband says what do you want for supper. I was not even hungary but I ordered pizza. Telling myself the whole time that I did not need this. Then I made myself feel better [?] by telling myself that I only ate three slices. Which is true in a way. The old Kaye would have eaten until I was physically sick. But I did not get to that point. So now I need to have one more cup of coffee and then heat me up some slim fast in the microwave then it is a day of my hot lemonade to flush all this junk out of my body. I am planning on making it back to church tomorrow [if somebody will take me]. Lord how I dislike having to depend on others to be late for their church because mine starts at a different time. I know the easy thing to do would be to go back to church where my family goes but that is not where I am comfortable. That is not where I feel loved. I need MY church family. So that is what has been happening to me. I will try my best to get back on here again tomorrow. I will not promise to be back tonight because I am trying to keep my bedtime routine the same as I have been doing since the seizure and that means being in bed at 8:30. I do feel better even when I am up at 4:30. Well, that has been how my journey has been going for the past six weeks or so. Not the best path for my journey, not a successful journey as far as weight loss. But one thing for sure I am not giving up on slim fast or my slim fast family. But most important I am not giving up on me.&nbsp;I am sorry that I have not been much help to anyone lately but I have come thru this little detour in my journey and now I am back on the road to continue my journey. I may have made some detours along the way but giving up on my journey is not an option for me. I will continue this journey and I will see a thinner me. Maybe not by my birthday but at least I will weigh less then I did this time last year.</p> <p>Dear God, thank you for giving me the strength to make it back to my journey. I know that I have not been following the path You have set before me but even though I went in a different direction You were right there watching over me and waiting for me to find my way back to You and the path that leads to my journey. Thank you for all my slim fast buddies that have come along just when I needed it the most and would post just a few words of encouragement on here. Words that helped me to turn myself back around and start my journey again. Bless and strengthen my slim fast family. Help them in the direction they need to go on their journey. Father, please make it possible for me to get back to church tomorrow. I need to feel the love and support of my church family to help me be strong thur all&nbsp; I am going thru at this time. Thank you for all Your love and giidance thru this time in my life. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.</p> <p>Well, that is me slim fast family. As I have said before not the best picture of a successful journey but a truthful one and I am still here. I may get detoured along this way by life but I will always find my way back to the right path. Thanks to all of you who give me the encouragement I need along this way. God bless you,&nbsp; Kaye</p>http://www.slim-fast.com/members/mustangnana/announcements/default.aspxWed, 17 Feb 2010 12:23:21 GMTb27fbe55-a45c-486c-8a8b-9ae2ace276c5:e438be7d-ddc1-488f-be9b-0b7167b0bc31mustangnana<p>Today is Wednesday Feburary 17,2010</p> <p>I am getting behind on posting my journal. So much is going on right now. I have been without my slim fast since last Friday morning. I have ate things that I knew I did not need.I didn&#39;t think I would ever find my slim fast again. I kept calling other walmarts and finally found it. The problem was getting somebody to take me and get it since I am not allowed to drive for now. I was getting ready to order it on line. My daughter took me after we got out of the doctors office. We had to drive about twenty miles to the walmart so while I was there I got six cases. That should hold me until my walmart gets them in. If not I will just have to make another long trip to get them again. I don&#39;t do good if I don&#39;t have my slim fast. If I can start the morning with a hot chocolate[still waiting on cappiccano] slim fast they I handle my day better. Without it I eat things that I shoud not have. My family makes it hard. My son bought cookines and set them on top of my freezer. I ate cookies. My daughter bought supper Saturday night. Fried fish, hushpuppies, fries. They really are making it hard on me. Monday it snowed. My daughter was off from work but we could not get out. My husband called and told us to order pizza and not get on the roads. We did. I probably ruined the ten pounds I lost last week. I know most of that was water but I will take it no matter how it comes off. This morning I have had three cups of black coffee and now I am having my hot slim fast. When I get finished with my slim fast I am going to start on the hot lemonade. I am going to try and flush as much of this junk out of my body as I can before Friday.</p> <p>Went to the doctor yesterday. They have me scheduled me for a cat scan and an eeg on Friday afternoon. Doctor does not believe he will find anything but just wants to be sure since I went 15 years without a seizure.&nbsp; On another note I found out yesterday that the emt&#39;s that took me to the hospital after I had my seizure turned me in to the state that I had a seizure.&nbsp; I expect to find out at any time that the state of Tennessee is going to take my liscense. I hope not. The doctor told me I could not drive for the next six months. I am not use to depending on others to take me places. I have not been to church in four weeks. Between the snow, the seizure, and then I ended up with MaryBeth&#39;s very bad cold it has all kept me here. I don&#39;t want to go to church and give somebody else my cold. Most of the people at my church at older people. With heart problems, on oxygen, and one is even batteling cancer. If my cough is not very bad I may go tonight. Christopher [my son] said he would take me. I hope I can go. I know the night air will not be good for me but I need to get to church. I listen to gospel music all the time but I need to be back in church. That is where I gain my greatest strength.</p> <p>Dear God, thank you for looking over and protecting me. Please help me with this cold so that I can get back in church to worship you with my church family.&nbsp; Help my earthly family to make a way for me to get there. I now have to depend on them to take me to church and drop me off before they go back to their church. I know they are willing to do it now but I fear that at some time they will get tired of going out of their way to take me and I will be left with no way to get to my church. Thank you for my daughter that is willing to take time off from work to get me to my doctors appointments. Thank you for the understanding boss she has that is willing to work with her to make it possible that she can be there with me. Be with my slim fast buddies. Strengthen them on their journey. God, help all of us to make the best decisions when it comes to our weight loss journey. Give me the strength I need to get myself back on track and continue to lose this weight. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.</p> <p>Sorry it has been so long. I guess that right now I am going thru another journey. Trying to get all these test over with so that I can devote all my time to my weight loss journey. Remember me when you pray Friday. I will admit I am scared but I am trusting God to keep me safe and to give me His grace to accept whatever may happen with these test. I will try to get make here again soon. Have a great day buddies and God bless each of you.&nbsp;&nbsp; Kaye</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>&#39;</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>&nbsp;</p>http://www.slim-fast.com/members/mustangnana/announcements/default.aspxFri, 12 Feb 2010 13:44:35 GMTb27fbe55-a45c-486c-8a8b-9ae2ace276c5:5ab5fb23-e58b-415e-be0a-ae59889f0ff3mustangnana<p>Today is Friday February 12,2010</p> <p>Sorry I have not been posting much lately. I find myself catching up on some much needed sleep in the afternoons. Being stuck at home and not able to get out and drive myself places was starting to give me cabin fever. But today was weigh in day and my daughter took MaryBeth to school and came back and got me. It is time for me to brag a little. Rachel sat in the car while I ran in to weigh. I ask them if the scales were right. Two ladies that work there came out and checked the scales and said they were right. I can not believe it. I LOST TEN [10] POUNDS THIS PAST WEEK. I just can&#39;t believe it. But when I get to thinking about it then it makes sense. I got a new pair of compression hose Saturday before I ended up at the hospital with a seizure. I could already tell a difference in my legs. The swelling was starting to go down. Plus my daughter bought the grilling machine and lots of chicken. We already had lots of brocolli and califlower . We have packed that freezer. Plus I drink two cups of black coffee a day the rest is what I call my hot lemonade. A coffee mug full of hot&nbsp;water with two packets of splenda and lots of lemon juice. I drink it all day long. I am so happy. I have now lost a total of 30 pounds. I have seven weeks to lose the other 22 pounds to put me under 300 pounds for my birthday. Don&#39;t know if I will make it but at least I am going to get close. I am taking better care of me. Maybe all the extra sleep helped. Maybe it was the grilling machine and veggies. I don&#39;t know for sure but it is just what I needed to get me over this cabin fever. I will gladly let others look after me and take care of me for a change. God knows this is just what I needed to bring my spirits back up.</p> <p>Dear God, thank you for the weight I lost this past week. Help me to continue to lose so I will be healthy. This is just what I needed to get me out of this feeling like a bird with its wings clipped. I now realized my body needed to slow down and get some much needed rest. From this day forward I will continue to go to bed early,, take a nap during the day if I feel I need it, eat grilled shrimp and chicken and lots of brocolli and caluiflower. I will continue to drink my hot lemonade. Be with my slim fast family. Give them a good week and lead each of us in the paths you would have us to go to make our journey successful. In Jesus name, Amen.</p> <p>Thanks for letting me brag. I am feeling much better now.&nbsp; Kaye</p>http://www.slim-fast.com/members/mustangnana/announcements/default.aspxWed, 10 Feb 2010 01:53:36 GMTb27fbe55-a45c-486c-8a8b-9ae2ace276c5:d473f870-3782-46cc-96a8-5d97070a676dmustangnana<p>Today is Tuesday February 9,2010</p> <p>Today is going good. Eating is under control. Swelling in legs seems to be going down. That new grilling machine is coming in handy. I even tried some grilled shrimp tonight. Never thought I would like it unless it was deep fried but it was really good. Ate a little grilled fish and a few grilled shrimp. Had a large salad. Got to go. It is past my bedtime. I will try to catch up with all of you tomorrow. Keep me in your prayers.</p> <p>Dear God, thank you for loving and taking care of me. This is something new that I have to get use to again. It will be awhile before I feel truly safe again. I know You are watching over and protecting me but I went so many years thnking these seizures were behing me and now it is something to have to deal with again. Father, give me your strength and help me thru this time in my life. Be with my slim fast buddies. Give them a successful week on their journey. Lead, guide and direct all of us in the paths you would have us to go. In Jesus name, Amen.</p> <p>Got to go buddies. I am running behind on my bedtime and I still have medicine to take. Talk to you all tomorrow. God bless each of you,&nbsp; Kaye</p>http://www.slim-fast.com/members/mustangnana/announcements/default.aspxMon, 08 Feb 2010 14:53:17 GMTb27fbe55-a45c-486c-8a8b-9ae2ace276c5:ff0c395b-ae69-4eca-b7ce-660eef0dce7dmustangnana<p>Today is Monday Feburary 8,2010</p> <p>Just got back from the doctor. Sorry I didn&#39;t check in last night I think all that Dilantin caught up with me. I slept all day. I got up last night for a little while but went back to bed at 8;30 just like I plan on doing every night. The doctor did some blood work. The are setting me up with a neurologist to find out why I had a break thru seizure after 15 years. He also wants the doctor to do a sleep study test on my while I am there. Not looking forward to any of that. I can no longer drive untll the neurologist says I can. Don&#39;t know how long that will be but I just feel like a little of my freedom has been taken away since I have to depend on other people to take me where I need to go. On a good note: I lost three pounds since Friday bringing my total today to twenty three pounds. I am happy but I am not changing my ticker because today was not my regular weigh in day. Friday is. Oh no. Now I have to try and find a way to the doctors office every Friday so I can weigh. Maybe my daughter will be able to take me. Well got to go for now. I will try and check in tonight for a prayer.&nbsp; God bless all of you,&nbsp; Kaye</p> <p>&nbsp;</p>http://www.slim-fast.com/members/mustangnana/announcements/default.aspxSun, 07 Feb 2010 01:28:39 GMTb27fbe55-a45c-486c-8a8b-9ae2ace276c5:d2e46184-b7f0-428c-bfa6-98d914dd1ec9mustangnana<p>Today is Saturday Feburary 6,2009</p> <p>This is going to be quick. Today has been a bad day for me. Today I had my first seizure in 15 years. My daughter was driving [thank God]. We had just went to pick 40 pounds of chicken,2 large bags of fish, and two packs of pork chops. Coming back I went into a seizure. Was taken&nbsp;by ambulance to the hospital. My dilantin [ I take for seizures] was to low. I had taken 100 mg this morning and was due another another 200 tonight. At the hospital they gave me another 500mg and I just took another 400mg before bed. Getting very sleepy. So I am getting ready to head to bed. I am guilty of staying on the computer until one in the mornings. Not anymore. My new bedtime is now 8:30. I have seen the effects a strokes has on someone and my main purpose now is to take better care of myself. My new freezer in now loaded with chicken, fish, and frozen vegetables. Got to go I can&#39;t hold my eyes open. the dilatin is taken effect.</p> <p>God thank you for watching over me today. Help me to take better care of myself from now on. Be with my slim fast buddies. Give them strength for the journey. In Jesus name, Amen.</p> <p>Prayer was a short one tonight. But God know all that is on my heart. I have five minutes before bedtime and I need to go get a glass of skim milk. I will try to catch up with you tomorrow. God bless all of you. Kaye</p>http://www.slim-fast.com/members/mustangnana/announcements/default.aspxFri, 05 Feb 2010 20:13:44 GMTb27fbe55-a45c-486c-8a8b-9ae2ace276c5:1745f991-37e5-4ba6-b385-b6865cdd0b41mustangnana<p>Today is Friday February 5,2010</p> <p>This will be short and not very sweet. Today was weigh in day. I gained two pounds last week and gained four pounds this past week. Can&#39;t seem to get myself going in the right direction. I make a lot of choices that I know are bad but I make them anyways. When I came out of the doctors office after weighing I took my grandaughter [first bad choice] and we went to Pizza Hut for their buffet. [second bad choice]&nbsp; I can&#39;t do anything about this week but I can start out tomorrow with my slim fast shakes and go from there. One good thing I did. One of Stella&#39;s sons came to see me this morning. He handed me a card and in the card was five hundred dollars. He said they all got a thousand dollars that their mom had saved and wanted to share his with me. After I cried for about an hour I went to Lowes and got me an upright freezer. I am going to be filling it up with boneless chicken tenders, fish, and frozen vegetables I can pop in the microwave. If anybody has any suggestion of how I can make my own freezer dinners and with what I am looking for all the suggestions I can get. I am going to make copies of the ideas and put them into a freezer meal book. Guess I need to also hit the site of recipe sharing when I leave here. I will be checking back buddies. Help me learn how to prepare freezer meals. I will try and remember to get back for our night time prayer. God bless each of you.&nbsp; Kaye</p>http://www.slim-fast.com/members/mustangnana/announcements/default.aspxFri, 05 Feb 2010 02:23:46 GMTb27fbe55-a45c-486c-8a8b-9ae2ace276c5:a2f9c836-c6de-4f13-81f1-1fb680cc4594mustangnana<p>Today is Thursday Feburary 4,2010</p> <p>Yes it&#39;s me again. The title to my journal would be funny if it were not so sad. This journey is not leading to a thinner me. I am still here. Why? I really don&#39;t know. I don&#39;t want to give up on myself yet. I gained last Friday but I was so excited because I finally had my slim fast shakes back. That excitement did not last long. I started eating. I would say I don&#39;t know why but I really think I do. I was getting stronger each day since Stella passed. I could talk about her without crying. This week I went back next door. That was the hardest thing I have ever done.I have been back over there to see her daughter but I would only go in the kitchen. I was not ready to see the room where Stella stayed. This week I went back. I went to Stella&#39;s room. I wanted so much just to hear her call my name. Don&#39;t get me wrong I am so glad she is safe at home with my heavenly father. Whole and free of feeding tubes and oxygen. Able to walk again. So why is this so hard? It did not help that her daughter wanted to give me things that belong to Stella. Things I could remember her by. I will always remember Stella in my heart. I said all that to say this. I was not careful to watch out for signs I was going to slip. When I can home and started on little debbie cookies that should have been my sign that I was about to get out of control. Now looking back had I just got on this computer and gave out a call of help to my slim fast buddies maybe someone could have talked me back before it got this far out of hand. Of course my ol deamon &quot;sodium&quot; has taken over again. My legs are swollen big time. So not only am I going to have a gain from all the fat and sugar but also from sodium. Tomorrow is weigh in day and I once thought about not going but I guess I better go and see how much I have gained so I will know the next week if I have lost any. I am going to get up in the morning and take my medicine then go to the doctors office and weigh. I will go across the street to wal-mart for somemore slim fast. I still have the two boxes I bought last week minus two cans. Maybe I should just have slim fast three times a day for a week. I don&#39;t know but one thing I do know I have to get back to walking on this journey. I have new compression hose to pick up tomorrow also all this while taking a six year old with me that is out of school with an upper respitory infection made even worse my going to spend the week end with daddy and he smoked around her the entire time. But we won&#39;t get me started on that one.</p> <p>Dear God, I need your help so much right now Father. I just can not seem to get myself to going in the right direction when it comes to my journey. I can start out the morning with my slim fast heated up in the microwave and within two hours I have already messed up. Plese give me a measure of Your strength to make it this coming week. Guide me in the ways that you would have me go that would lead to a successful journey. Thanks fo my slim fast buddies. Give them strength for their journey. Bless them with your great grace and mercy for all the work they have put in on their journey. Guide my steps this week lord. Help me to get my journey going in the right direction again. In Jesus name I pray Amen.</p> <p>Good night buddies. I am headed to bed. Haven&#39;t been sleeping much lately. Going to see if I can get some sleep tonight. God bless each and every one of you.&nbsp; Kaye</p>http://www.slim-fast.com/members/mustangnana/announcements/default.aspxFri, 29 Jan 2010 14:11:45 GMTb27fbe55-a45c-486c-8a8b-9ae2ace276c5:81af46cf-996a-4d68-89d9-0730ce0754e9mustangnana<p>Today is Friday January 28,2010</p> <p>Good morning. Got to the doctors office early to weight. We have a major snow storm on its way into Tennessee. Not good. Gained two pounds. Had picked up some snacks for the snow when everybody is stranded here. I got chex party mix. Sixty percent less calories than potato chips. That is good. Lots of SODIUM. THAT IS NOT GOOD.&nbsp; Now on to the good news. I went to Wal-Mart looking for slim fast and thanks be to God there it was. No cappicano but creamy chocolate. I felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I guess I am really dependent on the shakes. When I was drinking them before I was not drinking my hot lemonade. I expect big things next week. This has give me the incentive to try even harder on my journey. I was not doing good without my shakes. I tried to watch what I was eating but that darn ol sodium keep getting to me. Starting today I am not putting anything in my mouth until I have logged it in. I am going to get back on the treadmill as soon as I finish here.</p> <p>Our income tax return came back this past week. My husband wanted to buy me a new outfit. I am not ready for that yet. The ones I have are fitting a lot better. One skirt is even gotten to big. Need to see what my friend can do about taking it in. Now before you say well I would have jumped for a new outfit let me tell you I did get something. I threw away all my old make up and bought all new. I spent seventy five dollars on make up. I am sure my husband wishes I had taken the outfit instead. Well, I had better get to going. I have a lot to do before the storm hits.</p> <p>Dear God, thank you that my slim fast was back on the shelves today at wal-mart. Help me to use these to get myself back on track and start losing the way I need to. Bless my slim fast buddies with strength for the journey today. Give each of us the strength we need to make this journey a success so that we will be healthier. With Your help and the help of each other anything is possible. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.</p> <p>Thanks for everything you have done for me in the past two weeks. You will never know how much it has meant to me to have my buddies rally around me when I was going thur such a dark time in my life. God bless each and every one of you.&nbsp; Kaye</p>http://www.slim-fast.com/members/mustangnana/announcements/default.aspxWed, 27 Jan 2010 20:44:07 GMTb27fbe55-a45c-486c-8a8b-9ae2ace276c5:8d3f7c79-a83c-479c-9c08-8645f935ce39mustangnana<p>Today is Wednesday January 27,2010</p> <p>Hello everybody. I was just reading thru my last few post and realized something. I did not post what happened Friday when I went to weigh. The week before I had gained three pounds. I had spent the night with Stella at the hospital and my legs were swollen. So I knew there would be a gain.&nbsp; I was not expecting anything good when I went to weigh this past Friday. I had some times of eating things that I should not have had. But when I weithted I had lost two pounds. Yesterday I had to go to the doctor so they could do some blood work. I just had to check out the scales. I had not lost anything but I also did not gain anything. Hoping for a few pounds off this coming Friday. Went shopping for some make up today. Decided I would go to Zaxby&#39;s and get a grilled salad to bring home. Came home to drink diet tea with it. When I got home and opened up my salad it was the fried chicken. I didn&#39;t take it back. I ate it. Don&#39;t think it was that bad considering I had not had breakfast or anything except black coffee. I plan on the rest of my day being hot lemonade. I am getting close. That makes a total of 26 pounds. Four more and I will have lost 30 pounds. I need to lose 26 more pounds to be under 300 pounds. That is my birthday goal. This is the end of January. I have exactly 69 days to lose 26 pounds. That is what I am aiming for. I may have set my sights to high again. That is almost ten pounds a week to make it to my goal. That is not possible but I will get just as close as I can.</p> <p>Thaks for all the messages I continue to get from all of you. Even when I have not posted anything for several days I open up my slim fast page and there are messages from some of you again. Thank you for checking in on me. I think that I am going to be fine now.&nbsp; I am just still having trouble getting everything done that I want to do. I am just not use to having this much free time. Have to learn how to use it wisely again. Thanks to all of you for everything. We are suppost to be getting a lot of snow here in Tennessee. If my power goes out [which I pray it doesn&#39;t] then it would keep me from getting on the computer for a while. Need to make sure I have plenty of things to eat if the storm hits. My daughters suggestion was chips and cookies. I told her we would have plenty of peppers, cucumbers, carrots and lots of fruit. Hey, my outlook has changed. Just because we are snowed in does not mean we have to eat like pigs. If it should start to snow Thursday [oh, thats tomorrow] then I may need to get to the doctors office and weigh a day early. Hear my husband coming home guess I had better get off of here and see how his day went.</p> <p>Dear God, thank you for all the strength I have gotten from You and all my slim fast buddies. Help each of us on our journey to a thinner us. Give us the knowledge and direct our steps in the way that we should go to get to a healthier mind, soul, and body. Bless my slim fast buddies for all the help they have given me the past couple of weeks. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.</p> <p>I will try my best to post again tomorrow. Have a good afternoon and an even better night. Thanks for all you have done to bring me thru my valley. I could never thank you enough. God bless each and every one of you.&nbsp; Kaye</p>http://www.slim-fast.com/members/mustangnana/announcements/default.aspxMon, 25 Jan 2010 00:40:08 GMTb27fbe55-a45c-486c-8a8b-9ae2ace276c5:f21126e3-f373-4fd3-a8dd-a531852082a1mustangnana<p>Today is Sunday January 24,2010</p> <p>Once again I will say I am sorry for not putting my post on here. Seems like lately my mind is in a thousand different places. I can get started doing something and I just get turned around and start doing something different. I think my body has finally caught up&nbsp; from all the exhaustion but my mind seems to still be in over load. I am so use to going next door to take care of Stella I can&#39;t get use to the fact the the time is all mine now or at least until time to pick up MaryBeth. I am glad Stella is in heaven with my holy Father but I miss her so much. If just does not seem possible that a week ago Friday Stella WALKED into heaven. Do you know how great it is to be able to say that. She had not taken very many steps since March 2008. She is walking those streets in heaven. Free of pain. Maybe before long my post will be more about me but for now this is my way of working thru my grief.</p> <p>I am doing good on the eating. Not perfect but fair. Just waiting for the slim fast to hit the shelves again. Every store I go in I go looking for slim fast.. I am still pushing the hot lemonade. Got up at 1;30 this morning. My sleep comes in spells. I made me a coffee mug of hot lemonade and got on the computer for a couple of hours. It should have been my slim fast but instead it was some games on facebook. Than I put on some good gospel music and climbed back in bed to sleep for a couple more hours&nbsp;before getting up for church. Didn&#39;t get to go tonight. It is not snowing but it is raining cats and dogs. I have a hard time seeing in the dark and if it is pouring rain it is almost impossible. So here I sit wishing that I was at church.</p> <p>Dear God, thank you for the strength that I get from You to make it thru each day. The hurt is getting a little less each day. I don&#39;t wish Stella back her to the pain and misery she was in but I just miss her so much. I find it hard to get anything done during the day. I am use to going next door to take care of her. I just need to keep reminding myself that You are taking care of her now and she could not be in better hands. Help me on my slim fast journey. Help me to lose this weight so I can live a long and healthy life. I have seen what a stroke can do to someone and I realize that if I do not get this weight off that is exactly what is going to happen to me. Give me strength to make the right decisions. Be with my slim fast buddies. Give them a measure of your strength to make it on this journey. Thank you God for bringing these special women into my life. They have been such a help to me in the past week. I don&#39;t know where I would be without them in my life. Bless them for the blessing they have been&nbsp;to me.&nbsp;In Jesus name I pray, Amen.</p> <p>Good night buddies and have a good nights sleep. Thanks again for all the kind words&nbsp; I have gotten from each of you. God bless each and every one of you.&nbsp; Kaye</p>http://www.slim-fast.com/members/mustangnana/announcements/default.aspxThu, 21 Jan 2010 23:39:38 GMTb27fbe55-a45c-486c-8a8b-9ae2ace276c5:03d4b74c-f35a-4639-b32c-c630bbf5b39dmustangnana<p>Today is Thursday January 21,2010</p> <p>Hello everybody. Good news. Did you read the update on the slim fast website? Our shakes should be back on the shelves by the end of this month. I am going to buy up a big supply. Don&#39;t want to be caught without my slim fast again. Especially the cappiccano. Today went good. Had coffee for breakfast. Can&#39;t wait until I get my shakes back. At lunch I had a very large salad with lots of lettuce, some grape tomatoes, cucumbers, bell peppers, and onion with ranch dressing. For supper I had my cambells select soup and a peanut butter sandwich with a glass of milk. I feel really good about how things are going on my journey.</p> <p>Finally went next door to see Stella&#39;s daughter yesterday. That was the hardest thing walking in that house knowing Stella would never be there again. She called today and wanted me to come and pick up some flowers from the funeral. She says that she is not good with plants so she gave them to me. She also had this huge angel holding white roses. I thought the roses were real until I touched them. She said she wanted me to have it. It is beautiful. She also gave me a pair of p j&#39;s of Stella&#39;s for MaryBeth. I held on to those pajamas like I had ahold of Stella again. When MaryBeth came home from school and I told her about them she changed clothes and put on her &quot;granny pajamas&quot;. I am going to need to hem them for her but she loves them because they were granny&#39;s. I miss her so much. The hurt is not as fresh as it was. I occasionally break but I just try and think of Stella in heaven up on her feet walking. She is in no pain, she doesn&#39;t have to wear the oxygen and she does not have a feeding tube. How can I be sad knowing Stella is free and whole? I guess that I just get to feeling sorry for me because I can&#39;t have her with me but that is selfish. I would never bring her back here if I could but someday I will go to be with her.</p> <p>Dear God, thank you for this day and the strength that you give me from day to day. Be with me as I take back control of my life and get back on my journey. Help me to make all the right decisions that will lead to a healthier me. Be with my slim fast buddies. Give them strength for the journey that they are taking. Thank you for leading me to this site where I could find such good and faithful buddies. Bless them for all the encouragement they give me. Help me to be able to repay their kindness in some way. Help me always to be there if they should need anything from me. Thank you for taking Stella with you and getting her&nbsp;out of all the pain she was in. Be with her family and give them peace of heart and mind. Knowing that their mother is in a place with you free from pain and care. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.</p> <p>Good night buddies. Thanks for all you have done for me the last few days. Have a restful night sleep and I will talk to you tomorrow. God bless each of you.&nbsp;&nbsp; Kaye</p>http://www.slim-fast.com/members/mustangnana/announcements/default.aspxWed, 20 Jan 2010 23:58:17 GMTb27fbe55-a45c-486c-8a8b-9ae2ace276c5:6be09488-7697-4bdc-ae66-402724ba97c2mustangnana<p>Today has been very good as far as my food goes. I went over 360mg on my sodium. As far as everything else I am way under on calories and fats. I just need to start pushing the hot lemonade now to get rid of the extra sodium in my body. Question? How many calories does everybody else use? I go by the guide line slim fast set for me. My husband said my calories should probably be around 1500. I heard on the biggest loser the other night they say a woman needs between 1000 and 1200 calories. I can&#39;t remember how many calories slim fast says I need. I know the sodium is suppost to be no more than 2400. I am going to check my calories and I will post that. Slim fast has my calorie limit set at 1700. Would like to hear how many everybody else is getting.&nbsp;&nbsp; Kaye</p>http://www.slim-fast.com/members/mustangnana/announcements/default.aspxWed, 20 Jan 2010 17:16:23 GMTb27fbe55-a45c-486c-8a8b-9ae2ace276c5:da0d13cf-8b6f-446c-be60-0a3786e27bd5mustangnana<p>Today is Wednesday January 20,2010</p> <p>Hello everybody. I am back. This has been six of the hardest days of my life. But now it is time to take back control of my life. I will always love Stella and I do not regret a moment that I spent with her but I put so many things on hold. I was not fully comitted to my journey. I have not done a food journal in months, the exercise stop. Even my house work has suffered. I have so many things to get caught up on. I started this morning&nbsp;by going and doing a food journal again. I am still trying to work out what my food plan needs to be since I still don&#39;t have my shakes to depend on. I now know that my best defense is to stay with a food journal that will help me track my calories, sodium, fat and all the other good things. I have a confession to make. After we had Stella&#39;s burial my daughter and I went to the store to pick up a few things. We ended up eating fried chicken, potato wedges, macaronni salad, rolls, cookies, ice cream and lots of diet coke with loads of sodium. I was doing ok on the food the first five days. I could not eat. The thought of putting food in my mouth would gag me. I lived on lots of black coffee. Now I need to start the hot lemonade to try and push out all the junk that I put in my body yesterday. I know&nbsp;SisterC don&#39;t scream. I guess the emotional eater in me just took over and I had a whole day of everything that I did not need. Ok, I am back. I now need to keep my eye on the journey that I am on. I guess you could say I am basically starting all over again. I am sure Fridays weigh in is not going to be good. But that is ok. I am now back and I am taking control of my life again.</p> <p>Dear God, thank you for Your strength that has gotten me thru the past few days. Help me now to pay more attention to what I am doing on my journey. That same strength You gave me to make it thru the past few days Father I now need to get me back on my journey. The journey I was taking was not leading to a thinner me. But it will now. I will make better choices when it comes to food and I need to get the exercise started. Thank you for my SF family that has gotten me&nbsp;thru the past few days. Bless them in a mighty way for all the comfort and help they each have been to me. Help them on their journey and give them strength for the journey to make the best decisions for them. Thank You for taking Stella to live with you where she is now healthy, happy, and whole. Thank You for the opportunity to have this precious lady in my life. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.</p> <p>Thanks for all the messages of concern and prayers. Thanks for checking in on me. I will be ok now. I am back and I am going to make this my best journey yet. God bless each and everyone of you. You will never know how much you have helped me thru the past few days. I love all of you.&nbsp;&nbsp; Kaye</p>