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Ok, its been tough! took off the weight fast and have happily kept off 20 pounds but gained some back. went to St Barts which was my goal time and now I just want to be slim and have things fit better. NOthing makes a guy look older than a big pot belly pouncing out. really hate that.. anyway had a great time, st barts is magnificent- didnt make my goal, ate like a wild man ( and yes drank lots) ate butter and fantastic bread like I was in Paris and now back to the wake up call that i just can never eat the same again... I realize the recall is going to stop me from finishing my week and week end- cant believe I have to dump it down the sink.. in NYC its like 9.00 for 6 cans! anyway, will eat low cal low fat on the weekend and start again on Monday. I guess it is going to be like all over again so I will probly reset my weight chart ( now I know why they do that!) anyway troopers and newbies, its is a great place to start and get motivated. eating less calories a day is what the future is all about and now I know it for real!

edsbody — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 18:46:40 GMT

Ok, its been tough! took off the weight fast and have happily kept off 20 pounds but gained some back. went to St Barts which was my goal time and now I just want to be slim and have things fit better. NOthing makes a guy look older than a big pot belly pouncing out.

really hate that.. anyway had a great time, st barts is magnificent- didnt make my goal, ate like a wild man ( and yes drank lots) ate butter and fantastic bread like I was in Paris and now back to the wake up call that i just can never eat the same again...

I realize the recall is going to stop me from finishing my week and week end- cant believe I have to dump it down the sink.. in NYC its like 9.00 for 6 cans! anyway, will eat low cal low fat on the weekend and start again on Monday. I guess it is going to be like all over again so I will probly reset my weight chart ( now I know why they do that!)

anyway troopers and newbies, its is a great place to start and get motivated. eating less calories a day is what the future is all about and now I know it for real!

Ok, its been tough! took off the weight fast and have happily kept off 20 pounds but gained some back. went to St Barts which was my goal time and now I just want to be slim and have things fit better. NOthing makes a guy look older than a big pot belly pouncing out. really hate that.. anyway had a great time, st barts is magnificent- didnt make my goal, ate like a wild man ( and yes drank lots) ate butter and fantastic bread like I was in Paris and now back to the wake up call that i just can never eat the same again... I realize the recall is going to stop me from finishing my week and week end- cant believe I have to dump it down the sink.. in NYC its like 9.00 for 6 cans! anyway, will eat low cal low fat on the weekend and start again on Monday. I guess it is going to be like all over again so I will probly reset my weight chart ( now I know why they do that!) anyway troopers and newbies, its is a great place to start and get motivated. eating less calories a day is what the future is all about and now I know it for real!

edsbody — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 18:46:39 GMT

anyway troopers and newbies, its is a great place to start and get motivated. eating less calories a day is what the future is all about and now I know it for real!

Ok, its been tough! took off the weight fast and have happily kept off 20 pounds but gained some back. went to St Barts which was my goal time and now I just want to be slim and have things fit better. NOthing makes a guy look older than a big pot belly pouncing out. really hate that.. anyway had a great time, st barts is magnificent- didnt make my goal, ate like a wild man ( and yes drank lots) ate butter and fantastic bread like I was in Paris and now back to the wake up call that i just can never eat the same again... I realize the recall is going to stop me from finishing my week and week end- cant believe I have to dump it down the sink.. in NYC its like 9.00 for 6 cans! anyway, will eat low cal low fat on the weekend and start again on Monday. I guess it is going to be like all over again so I will probly reset my weight chart ( now I know why they do that!) anyway troopers and newbies, its is a great place to start and get motivated. eating less calories a day is what the future is all about and now I know it for real!

edsbody — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 18:46:38 GMT

anyway troopers and newbies, its is a great place to start and get motivated. eating less calories a day is what the future is all about and now I know it for real!

Yikes! it surrounds me. This is terrible stuff, really. and those little easy litle pieces to gooble up. I feel in yesterday and just hated myself after... I feel my sweet tooth coming back.. this rots! Why did I really think I could just give up eating and live on slimfast for the rest of my life? Oh well. TODAY I was really great, ONLY 3 glasses of water ( I still HATE water, I don't know why)but 3 for me is amazing. I probably will explode into flames someday from being so "dry", i guess all the booze was my liquid, gosh I have really cut that out. anyway, i was really great today and just had the 2 slimfasts-- i am trying not to be hungry. let's see, meeting a friend for dinner and hope I can order the cobb salad and not the Pasta I am dreaming about...anyway, my carrot on the string is still my st Barths vaction in a few weeks, not going to make my goal, but I am still going so I am npot worried about my own deadlines. Gosh, I would love to look back on this a year from now and be my goal weight. anyway- Day at a time and just HAVE to be good each day if I am going to see any changes..The me I see is up to me! GIVE ALL YOUR CANDY TO THE LAST KID! or- after the "last kid" just leave it in a bowl on the door step...get it out of your house!!

edsbody — Wed, 28 Oct 2009 22:28:34 GMT

Yikes! it surrounds me. This is terrible stuff, really. and those little easy litle pieces to gooble up. I feel in yesterday and just hated myself after... I feel my sweet tooth coming back.. this rots!

Why did I really think I could just give up eating and live on slimfast for the rest of my life? Oh well. TODAY I was really great, ONLY 3 glasses of water ( I still HATE water, I don't know why)but 3 for me is amazing. I probably will explode into flames someday from being so "dry", i guess all the booze was my liquid, gosh I have really cut that out. anyway, i was really great today and just had the 2 slimfasts-- i am trying not to be hungry. let's see, meeting a friend for dinner and hope I can order the cobb salad and not the Pasta I am dreaming about...anyway, my carrot on the string is still my st Barths vaction in a few weeks, not going to make my goal, but I am still going so I am npot worried about my own deadlines. Gosh, I would love to look back on this a year from now and be my goal weight. anyway- Day at a time and just HAVE to be good each day if I am going to see any changes..The me I see is up to me!

GIVE ALL YOUR CANDY TO THE LAST KID! or- after the "last kid" just leave it in a bowl on the door step...get it out of your house!!

one of my buds here said that and I really love it because it is so right to the point. who wants top loose a fight? right? well, It is so hard at night since I am such a nocturnal eater. LOVE to eat and watch TV- Classic fattie, right? well now i force my self to sit on my hanbds and if i go insane, i eat a bunch of almonds which helps my crunch factor. heres another crazy deal. I guess I am a coffee addict, but anyway i started using slimfast as a coffee additive in lieu of those little half and half things- kinda like a mocha cafe choclato thing. I dunno, I guess I had to do something. wonder why they are best cold. lately i drink mine at room temp, seems more creamy chocolatey. am I losing my mind.. ah well, how much does a mind weigh? Guys, I am at a 31 pound loss, I am extra jiggly and love that my "love" handle ( who the hell loves that?) remember its also called "spare tire!") seems to be at a loss for hanging on. I can see how it is so much less. how I wish hot water would just melt it off.. OK, 1 more month till my vacation goal, love to lose 10 more! seems best to make small goals to get to the big one- less "psychological" up-hill thoughts, right? anyway, my fellow wonderful, happy, full of life cheer leaders. we can WIN this fight if we stay STRONG, so I know how hard it is, BUT GET STRONG. read this and then BE this. repeat- I AM A STRONG PERSON. I AM STRONGER THAN CAKE OR CANDY BECAUSE I HAVE MADE THE CHOICE TO BE THIN AND IT STARTS RIGHT NOW!!!

edsbody — Wed, 21 Oct 2009 21:57:49 GMT

one of my buds here said that and I really love it because it is so right to the point. who wants top loose a fight? right? well, It is so hard at night since I am such a nocturnal eater. LOVE to eat and watch TV- Classic fattie, right? well now i force my self to sit on my hanbds and if i go insane, i eat a bunch of almonds which helps my crunch factor.

heres another crazy deal. I guess I am a coffee addict, but anyway i started using slimfast as a coffee additive in lieu of those little half and half things- kinda like a mocha cafe choclato thing. I dunno, I guess I had to do something. wonder why they are best cold. lately i drink mine at room temp, seems more creamy chocolatey. am I losing my mind.. ah well, how much does a mind weigh? Guys, I am at a 31 pound loss, I am extra jiggly and love that my "love" handle ( who the hell loves that?) remember its also called "spare tire!") seems to be at a loss for hanging on. I can see how it is so much less. how I wish hot water would just melt it off..

OK, 1 more month till my vacation goal, love to lose 10 more! seems best to make small goals to get to the big one- less "psychological" up-hill thoughts, right?

anyway, my fellow wonderful, happy, full of life cheer leaders. we can WIN this fight if we stay STRONG, so I know how hard it is, BUT GET STRONG. read this and then BE this. repeat- I AM A STRONG PERSON. I AM STRONGER THAN CAKE OR CANDY BECAUSE I HAVE MADE THE CHOICE TO BE THIN AND IT STARTS RIGHT NOW!!!

wow, my pants keep falling down and I am going to have to spend another 150 for alterations! crap, but what a great side effect. I feel like losing just these 20 pounds has made my body like weird about the way stuff fits. In one way i want to tighten my belt to keep my pants from falling down and bagging at the ankles yet if I do that the waist bunches up and i have to tuck my shirt in all the time. I love the less love handle blob at my waist but now I feel like my thigh is a bit wobbly wiggly- not a big trun on. kinda wish i could just hang upside down and have it all pulled and put where it should really go. NOT happy that my biceps are feeling less pumped but I guess they really are less "plumped" so now I am going to have to go back to lifting weights. My goal is another 2o pounds before i do a gym membership. I think I have a fear of going back to Equinox which is a fantastic gym but sick of those 25 year olds with perfect hair and abercrombie bodies. a bit intimidating because gravity has taken its toll and i dont think I can bounce back... but if I do another 20 I think I will be reved to play the part of older guy with a great body... gosh, we guys are SO VAIN, aren't we? I just want to be able to wear a white t shirt and feel sexy again. funny too because there are so many young guiys out there who are heavy set and i guess it is part of their look but I just see it as unhealthy. i dunno, NYC has so many types that their is a group for all, which is so cool. If any "Buddies" are reading this- please say hello. I know we all use this differently and I dont always have the time, but it really helps to just blog away and talk to yourself about what's going on. I am concerned that some of my buddies have not been on in a few months which makes me sad that maybe they slipped off. On the other hand, many new buddies really have the determination to get on at least once a week and say hi-- that really helps to know that we are not alone, taking this seriously and may become winners in a few months in reaching our goals! 50 more pounds but that is SO miuch better than the 75 I started with as a goal. i would like to be 50 pounds lighter by next April, my birthday. best present i could ever have and hopefully a realistic goal. god bless us all and help us with his strength.

edsbody — Wed, 14 Oct 2009 14:52:27 GMT

wow, my pants keep falling down and I am going to have to spend another 150 for alterations! crap, but what a great side effect. I feel like losing just these 20 pounds has made my body like weird about the way stuff fits. In one way i want to tighten my belt to keep my pants from falling down and bagging at the ankles yet if I do that the waist bunches up and i have to tuck my shirt in all the time. I love the less love handle blob at my waist but now I feel like my thigh is a bit wobbly wiggly- not a big trun on. kinda wish i could just hang upside down and have it all pulled and put where it should really go. NOT happy that my biceps are feeling less pumped but I guess they really are less "plumped" so now I am going to have to go back to lifting weights. My goal is another 2o pounds before i do a gym membership.

I think I have a fear of going back to Equinox which is a fantastic gym but sick of those 25 year olds with perfect hair and abercrombie bodies. a bit intimidating because gravity has taken its toll and i dont think I can bounce back... but if I do another 20 I think I will be reved to play the part of older guy with a great body... gosh, we guys are SO VAIN, aren't we? I just want to be able to wear a white t shirt and feel sexy again. funny too because there are so many young guiys out there who are heavy set and i guess it is part of their look but I just see it as unhealthy. i dunno, NYC has so many types that their is a group for all, which is so cool.

If any "Buddies" are reading this- please say hello. I know we all use this differently and I dont always have the time, but it really helps to just blog away and talk to yourself about what's going on. I am concerned that some of my buddies have not been on in a few months which makes me sad that maybe they slipped off. On the other hand, many new buddies really have the determination to get on at least once a week and say hi-- that really helps to know that we are not alone, taking this seriously and may become winners in a few months in reaching our goals! 50 more pounds but that is SO miuch better than the 75 I started with as a goal. i would like to be 50 pounds lighter by next April, my birthday. best present i could ever have and hopefully a realistic goal. god bless us all and help us with his strength.

oh, and let me just say that the best motivation is to have lost a bit of weight. I got a "your'e looking good" from a person i know and that helped and when i sit down the buttons dont pull like before- AND, my shoes are looser! anyone else have that experience? I know its crazy, but I guess my feet were fat too! Hang in there everyone! The Holidays are coming and if we can just get through this month and next, Thanks giving is going to look really good on us! I am going to St. Barts- anyone know much about it? I hear its great.

edsbody — Tue, 13 Oct 2009 14:57:41 GMT

oh, and let me just say that the best motivation is to have lost a bit of weight. I got a "your'e looking good" from a person i know and that helped and when i sit down the buttons dont pull like before- AND, my shoes are looser! anyone else have that experience? I know its crazy, but I guess my feet were fat too! Hang in there everyone! The Holidays are coming and if we can just get through this month and next, Thanks giving is going to look really good on us!

I am going to St. Barts- anyone know much about it? I hear its great.

So I am at my trade show, starting at 7 am each day to let the caterer in. SO MANY treats! I have been pretty good. Honestly i am stopping the shakes this week which might be a mistake but I hate to add them in when I know i will be eating. I wont tell you the menu but the foods are amazing. I am doing my best to: limit portions- higher the calories, less i take. Load up on fillers- yes, i eat the garnishes like spouts and frisee drink coffee which i guess limits hunger or something like that. realize that as my imaginary thin ED would do is be REALLY picky about food. if I take a bagel, I just have a bite and toss the rest. I feel guilty for the waste but right now I am doing my best to fight the parental memory rule of " if you take it, eat it.. I am now on the - :"it's not worth it ( or good enough) to add all these calories" so a small bite is it and i leave the rest or toss it OR- Talk o everyone while it sits on my plate like THIN people do. ever see that? OH, and what's with Betthany from Housewives of NY- I really like her but she is doing a class on being "naturally" thin. My chemical make-up is that my body takes calories from the person eating in front of me! the battle of food is really nuts but really real.

edsbody — Tue, 13 Oct 2009 14:49:43 GMT

So I am at my trade show, starting at 7 am each day to let the caterer in. SO MANY treats! I have been pretty good. Honestly i am stopping the shakes this week which might be a mistake but I hate to add them in when I know i will be eating. I wont tell you the menu but the foods are amazing. I am doing my best to:

limit portions- higher the calories, less i take.

Load up on fillers- yes, i eat the garnishes like spouts and frisee

drink coffee which i guess limits hunger or something like that.

realize that as my imaginary thin ED would do is be REALLY picky about food. if I take a bagel, I just have a bite and toss the rest. I feel guilty for the waste but right now I am doing my best to fight the parental memory rule of " if you take it, eat it.. I am now on the - :"it's not worth it ( or good enough) to add all these calories" so a small bite is it and i leave the rest or toss it OR- Talk o everyone while it sits on my plate like THIN people do. ever see that?

OH, and what's with Betthany from Housewives of NY- I really like her but she is doing a class on being "naturally" thin. My chemical make-up is that my body takes calories from the person eating in front of me! the battle of food is really nuts but really real.

feeling really good that I can squeeze into the previous size pants, way too tight at the waist but hell if I am going back. people like twistygirl really make me realize how much we all have the same story and it how much we are all really connected. the battle i fight is the battle we all win, but we each have to win it first. This is going to be a really stressful week, its the Tabletop show in NYC. I have worked late all week and through out the month getting it all ready and now this weekend as well. It starts on Monday! All the critiques and all the comments good bad and indifferent affect me. they usually drive me to eat or to drink or both. i also know that i feel like celebrating that all this work is through. wow, this really changes not just how we eat but how we think and reward ourselves, doesn't it. it is a bit more than just cutting calories. OK Buddies and readers, Know that you are loved, Love your self, stop the blame of yourself or towards others and KEEP ON IT! YOU really can do this, it IS NOT going to take that long, it IS NOT going to be that hard. START TODAY thinking what are you going to do when you are slim ? what will we spend our time on then??? GET OUT and LIVE! LOVE LIFE, LOVE YOUR LIFE and know you are getting better everyday.. more soon! wish me luck!

edsbody — Fri, 09 Oct 2009 22:50:05 GMT

feeling really good that I can squeeze into the previous size pants, way too tight at the waist but hell if I am going back.

people like twistygirl really make me realize how much we all have the same story and it how much we are all really connected. the battle i fight is the battle we all win, but we each have to win it first. This is going to be a really stressful week, its the Tabletop show in NYC. I have worked late all week and through out the month getting it all ready and now this weekend as well.

It starts on Monday! All the critiques and all the comments good bad and indifferent affect me. they usually drive me to eat or to drink or both. i also know that i feel like celebrating that all this work is through. wow, this really changes not just how we eat but how we think and reward ourselves, doesn't it. it is a bit more than just cutting calories.

OK Buddies and readers, Know that you are loved, Love your self, stop the blame of yourself or towards others and KEEP ON IT! YOU really can do this, it IS NOT going to take that long, it IS NOT going to be that hard.

START TODAY thinking what are you going to do when you are slim ? what will we spend our time on then??? GET OUT and LIVE! LOVE LIFE, LOVE YOUR LIFE and know you are getting better everyday.. more soon! wish me luck!

Hey all- I am still here, still alive and still with it. it has been like a month and feeling really good. I know this is nuts but I keep forgetting to weigh myself. I feel like it is just the way i have to live right now. yes, I love the weight going down progress but what I really love is FEELING so much lighter, thinner and having my pants a bit baggier. its so neat not to be cut in half by my belt! I dont run out of breath when i tie my shoes either. no more grunts! anyway- life has just been so hectic. this is my busy time setting up the Showroom in NYC for the October trade show ( Tabletop) show, 2 more weeks and i am so hanging in there. I hope all of you are too and thank you for your notes my pals- it really helps.

edsbody — Thu, 01 Oct 2009 21:33:17 GMT

Hey all- I am still here, still alive and still with it. it has been like a month and feeling really good. I know this is nuts but I keep forgetting to weigh myself. I feel like it is just the way i have to live right now. yes, I love the weight going down progress but what I really love is FEELING so much lighter, thinner and having my pants a bit baggier. its so neat not to be cut in half by my belt! I dont run out of breath when i tie my shoes either. no more grunts! anyway- life has just been so hectic. this is my busy time setting up the Showroom in NYC for the October trade show ( Tabletop) show, 2 more weeks and i am so hanging in there. I hope all of you are too and thank you for your notes my pals- it really helps.

Ok, this was the MOST impossible place to eat healthy more or less even find slimfast. i thought of packing it but travelling on biz means sharing meals with co-workers at the risk of being not very connected. and who wants to drink a slimfast in their room all alone. bad news, i gained a pound. Good news, I gained ONLY a pound. not that i really went off, i tried eating like a normal person and i think did pretty good, but I can see now that i can never really eat as a normal person, If I am going to stay this way- or at least lose weight I will forever have to limit my calories forever. Oh well, 50 years of eating anything was good i guess and now i have to pay the piper. we all just dont need the calories we eat and we all can live on many less calories than we have been consuming. I want to be a thin-er person and this is the price for it. So be it. today i am back, only 2 slim fast all day and my lean cuisine is a home waiting. i realize this is only 800 calories but since I am now convinced that my body takes calories from the person ahead of me eating ice cream or even gum, i have to be extreme. so hang in there everyone, Less really is More- more loss, more joy, and probably more healthy. we all have to get used to this idea or learn to fill up on really really low calorie foods. i think the whole "eating" thing is where we go wrong. we arent addicted to food, we are addicted to eating. cooking, making, shopping, preparing, reading about, watching food on TV, - i know it gives me great joy but i am trying to switch my joy into less aches and pains, fitting into clothes easier, not carrying all this "baggage" around and yes, the incredible lightness of being "slim".

edsbody — Mon, 14 Sep 2009 22:43:19 GMT

Ok, this was the MOST impossible place to eat healthy more or less even find slimfast. i thought of packing it but travelling on biz means sharing meals with co-workers at the risk of being not very connected. and who wants to drink a slimfast in their room all alone.

bad news, i gained a pound. Good news, I gained ONLY a pound. not that i really went off, i tried eating like a normal person and i think did pretty good, but I can see now that i can never really eat as a normal person, If I am going to stay this way- or at least lose weight I will forever have to limit my calories forever. Oh well, 50 years of eating anything was good i guess and now i have to pay the piper.

we all just dont need the calories we eat and we all can live on many less calories than we have been consuming. I want to be a thin-er person and this is the price for it. So be it. today i am back, only 2 slim fast all day and my lean cuisine is a home waiting. i realize this is only 800 calories but since I am now convinced that my body takes calories from the person ahead of me eating ice cream or even gum, i have to be extreme.

so hang in there everyone, Less really is More- more loss, more joy, and probably more healthy. we all have to get used to this idea or learn to fill up on really really low calorie foods. i think the whole "eating" thing is where we go wrong. we arent addicted to food, we are addicted to eating. cooking, making, shopping, preparing, reading about, watching food on TV, - i know it gives me great joy but i am trying to switch my joy into less aches and pains, fitting into clothes easier, not carrying all this "baggage" around and yes, the incredible lightness of being "slim".

its LABOR DAY WEEKEND . all i can think about is grilling something. oh well, think of NEXT Labot day when we will be free of all this extra stuff and looking skinny and trim! we are going to be commrades for some time so - just a check in to say, be good, keep the calories low, walk away from food, drink water and all the stuff you know... be in the skinny thinking person habit, keep saying, "i'm not hungry" like skinny people do. I really heard that! I dont think I have ever said that in my life. time to LOVE my body, not make it part of my daily LABOR. Happy LABOR day.. this year..

edsbody — Fri, 04 Sep 2009 17:30:33 GMT

its LABOR DAY WEEKEND . all i can think about is grilling something. oh well, think of NEXT Labot day when we will be free of all this extra stuff and looking skinny and trim! we are going to be commrades for some time so - just a check in to say, be good, keep the calories low, walk away from food, drink water and all the stuff you know...

be in the skinny thinking person habit, keep saying, "i'm not hungry" like skinny people do. I really heard that! I dont think I have ever said that in my life.

time to LOVE my body, not make it part of my daily LABOR. Happy LABOR day.. this year..

wow, another 3 pounds off my second weighing and week. I am jazzed. How nice to be able to breathe in my pants and not be cut in half when I bend over. I actually tucked my shirt in and wore a belt for the first time this summer. I am off to Vegas for the week and will have to either pack or buy my slimfast there I guess. No drinking has been hard with friends, but I try adding club soda to wine or just have club soda with a lime in it and (white lie) just say that it is a gin and tonic ( it is in my dreams). anyway guys and gals, fat is fat and it does not discriminate between the sexes! men have the "oh, its easier for you to carry it off", well a heart attack is a heart attack and obesity leads to so many pains and illnesses that we dont need. we do have a choice and we just have to change our choices. I am NOT saying that is easy, I KNOW, but seeing the difference my choices have made these weeks is astounding. and I want to help others do it! it helps me as much as them. catch you all next week.

edsbody — Fri, 04 Sep 2009 17:22:21 GMT

wow, another 3 pounds off my second weighing and week. I am jazzed. How nice to be able to breathe in my pants and not be cut in half when I bend over. I actually tucked my shirt in and wore a belt for the first time this summer.

I am off to Vegas for the week and will have to either pack or buy my slimfast there I guess. No drinking has been hard with friends, but I try adding club soda to wine or just have club soda with a lime in it and (white lie) just say that it is a gin and tonic ( it is in my dreams).

anyway guys and gals, fat is fat and it does not discriminate between the sexes! men have the "oh, its easier for you to carry it off", well a heart attack is a heart attack and obesity leads to so many pains and illnesses that we dont need. we do have a choice and we just have to change our choices. I am NOT saying that is easy, I KNOW, but seeing the difference my choices have made these weeks is astounding. and I want to help others do it! it helps me as much as them.

catch you all next week.

its been fun to think of the people here and that we all have the same deal. it def helps you keep honest about your eating. I want to thank each and every one of you for reading, commenting or just watching this blog spot.. I am here to help you as well so always reach out- i welcome all buddies new and old out there. IT IS a CONSTANT battle, i realize but getting it off is the first and if I can win that- after all this work, I can hopefully keep my new motivation and learning how to deal with food in a totally new way. Basically I was lazy, ate way too much and just loved eating as a hobby. as I learn not to make food such a priority, that i wont starve or miss out on anything or be denied 'my share", I am finding how free it is not to really care so much and put my attention on other things that are so much more important. I love feeling better, it is so nice not to have my back hurt or knees be so stiff. i am starting to fit back intop clothes i kept but never thought I'd fit into. and hey, this is just my second week! I am really into it and Slim-fast really gave me the kick start to do it as healthy as anything else Ive tried. I am still working on things to do better- like packing my lunch at night so i dont have to stress in morning. drinking water and trying to keep more active than i have been. I think it is empowering to face the facts and even read my own words. it really validates how I feel and what i am actively doing for MY OWN sake for the first time in a long while. My goal is still tight to the timeline but I really am hoping to get at least halfway by Thanksgiving and that is just about 30 pounds away.. maybe by Christmas i can celebrate with 75 OFF!

edsbody — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 21:19:24 GMT

its been fun to think of the people here and that we all have the same deal. it def helps you keep honest about your eating. I want to thank each and every one of you for reading, commenting or just watching this blog spot..

I am here to help you as well so always reach out- i welcome all buddies new and old out there. IT IS a CONSTANT battle, i realize but getting it off is the first and if I can win that- after all this work, I can hopefully keep my new motivation and learning how to deal with food in a totally new way. Basically I was lazy, ate way too much and just loved eating as a hobby.

as I learn not to make food such a priority, that i wont starve or miss out on anything or be denied 'my share", I am finding how free it is not to really care so much and put my attention on other things that are so much more important.

I love feeling better, it is so nice not to have my back hurt or knees be so stiff. i am starting to fit back intop clothes i kept but never thought I'd fit into. and hey, this is just my second week! I am really into it and Slim-fast really gave me the kick start to do it as healthy as anything else Ive tried. I am still working on things to do better- like packing my lunch at night so i dont have to stress in morning. drinking water and trying to keep more active than i have been.

I think it is empowering to face the facts and even read my own words. it really validates how I feel and what i am actively doing for MY OWN sake for the first time in a long while. My goal is still tight to the timeline but I really am hoping to get at least halfway by Thanksgiving and that is just about 30 pounds away.. maybe by Christmas i can celebrate with 75 OFF!

I know, I know. I had to weigh myself twice because i couldnt believe it. I couldnt get to my scale on sat so I had to wait till Sunday morning. I have been so happy because this big drop has really given me hope that I can do it in a bit less time than I thought. The SF plan has taught me to cut calories and portions as well as change the foods i eat and DONT eat any longer. Replacing a meal with a shake that still gives me protein and energy gets me to get past the eating, weighing, making a lunch, shopping for fresh food and all that stuff. we are all pretty much time starved, so just having a can to drink saves me time to go for a walk in the park, type on this site and other things that "going for lunch" took away. My house is neeater and cleaner, I am trying to organize drawers and closets, keep my desk at work from getting out of control, etc, etc. I think that this goal of losing weight is being combined with trying to be a better person, not just a slimmer one. i want to live better, enjoy my perfect life more. gosh i used to get home so stressed, i'd plop down and start watching TV, grab a bag of corn chips, pretzels, cookies and just flick channels all night long. Now i try to do a constructive project ( I can always organize, trust me), walk my dog for a longer time, enjoy being outside more, landscaping, working around the house, etc. Last weekend i drafgged everything out of my tool shed, put shelves in, added hooks and peg board for all my tools and organized the whole thing. i went to Home depot, got belgian block, box wood, golden thred, white azaleas and something purple and mulch ( it took 3 trips ..and on a saturday) and relandscapped the beds in front of the house and on the side of my driveway. I could hardly stand up straight, my back was a mess but I felt such a sense of accomplishment. had a neighbor over for dinner, made seared ahi tuna with veggies and she brought a whole grain kinda thing. we had water, water water, and one glass of wine only. it was 11 30 before she left and i crashed and passed out. still made it to church on Sunday, even though wanted to skip and then sat by the water and read all day before leaving for the city. I live in the city during the week and my home in CT on weekends. that makes your time go fast, trust me.. anyway, i am working hard to keep going, 75 is my goal! 63 more to get rid of!

edsbody — Tue, 01 Sep 2009 22:26:17 GMT

I know, I know. I had to weigh myself twice because i couldnt believe it. I couldnt get to my scale on sat so I had to wait till Sunday morning. I have been so happy because this big drop has really given me hope that I can do it in a bit less time than I thought.

The SF plan has taught me to cut calories and portions as well as change the foods i eat and DONT eat any longer. Replacing a meal with a shake that still gives me protein and energy gets me to get past the eating, weighing, making a lunch, shopping for fresh food and all that stuff.

we are all pretty much time starved, so just having a can to drink saves me time to go for a walk in the park, type on this site and other things that "going for lunch" took away. My house is neeater and cleaner, I am trying to organize drawers and closets, keep my desk at work from getting out of control, etc, etc. I think that this goal of losing weight is being combined with trying to be a better person, not just a slimmer one. i want to live better, enjoy my perfect life more.

gosh i used to get home so stressed, i'd plop down and start watching TV, grab a bag of corn chips, pretzels, cookies and just flick channels all night long. Now i try to do a constructive project ( I can always organize, trust me), walk my dog for a longer time, enjoy being outside more, landscaping, working around the house, etc.

Last weekend i drafgged everything out of my tool shed, put shelves in, added hooks and peg board for all my tools and organized the whole thing. i went to Home depot, got belgian block, box wood, golden thred, white azaleas and something purple and mulch ( it took 3 trips ..and on a saturday) and relandscapped the beds in front of the house and on the side of my driveway. I could hardly stand up straight, my back was a mess but I felt such a sense of accomplishment.

had a neighbor over for dinner, made seared ahi tuna with veggies and she brought a whole grain kinda thing. we had water, water water, and one glass of wine only. it was 11 30 before she left and i crashed and passed out. still made it to church on Sunday, even though wanted to skip and then sat by the water and read all day before leaving for the city. I live in the city during the week and my home in CT on weekends. that makes your time go fast, trust me..

anyway, i am working hard to keep going, 75 is my goal! 63 more to get rid of!

But i had absolutely no biz being there. regardless i went (told no one of my "diet") ( why is that shameful?") I had water all night, ate 11 plain rigatoni from the edge of the serving plate, i really thin piece of lemon chicken and the banana from the "tug boat" dessert ( which is rridiculously amazing if you love ice cream) so i did it! I was really proud of myself. here's a tip. take your fork and roll it in the napkin leaving food on your plate. no one doesnt even know you are not eating, it slows you down and really limits you. So here is what I learned so far, dont tell anyone you are on a diet,- they dont care and i think they only want to see you fail. i think we somehow take their joy away. other people there were also overweight ( as HELLO- MOST PEOPLE ARE! isnt that crazy?) and they arent ready yet like we are. it seems we can really only help ourselves anyway. I hate making people feel guilty, I dont want to be guilty, I just changed my habits, that is all. I am sad i cant eat anything i want and not gain weight, but i cant. it would be healthy anyway. Lots of thin people suffer from all sorts of stuff like cholesteral and such. Oh I admit, my only concern is to be ( LOOK) thin and fit into my clothes. I am incredibly vain sometimes and when i saw a friend who had had surgery to be thin I had to admit how much YOUNGER they looked. gosh that is an incentive as much as anything. So satuday will be my big once a week weigh in. This was my first week and I can not wait to find out how much i lost. heres the deal, slim fast is not a miracle. I didnt gain this in a week and I am not going to loose it all in a week, at 2 pounds a week that 25 weeks which is a bit more than 6 months! I wont make my goal of thanksgiving unless i up the loss ( ugh! "exercise") I know my evil twin would much rather watch a movie, eat pasta, popcorn and pizza and drink wine, beer, vodka cocktails, but heres the deal- he is getting smaller and I am winning this. Ed, is going to lose 50 pounds, I am on my way to lose 50 pounds, 50 pounds are going to be released into space and I dont care where it goes but it aint going to stick on me anymore. if you think your feel the same, let me know, i need the inspration too!.

edsbody — Fri, 28 Aug 2009 17:54:29 GMT

But i had absolutely no biz being there. regardless i went (told no one of my "diet") ( why is that shameful?") I had water all night, ate 11 plain rigatoni from the edge of the serving plate, i really thin piece of lemon chicken and the banana from the "tug boat" dessert ( which is rridiculously amazing if you love ice cream) so i did it! I was really proud of myself.

here's a tip. take your fork and roll it in the napkin leaving food on your plate. no one doesnt even know you are not eating, it slows you down and really limits you.

So here is what I learned so far, dont tell anyone you are on a diet,- they dont care and i think they only want to see you fail. i think we somehow take their joy away. other people there were also overweight ( as HELLO- MOST PEOPLE ARE! isnt that crazy?) and they arent ready yet like we are. it seems we can really only help ourselves anyway. I hate making people feel guilty, I dont want to be guilty, I just changed my habits, that is all. I am sad i cant eat anything i want and not gain weight, but i cant. it would be healthy anyway. Lots of thin people suffer from all sorts of stuff like cholesteral and such. Oh I admit, my only concern is to be ( LOOK) thin and fit into my clothes. I am incredibly vain sometimes and when i saw a friend who had had surgery to be thin I had to admit how much YOUNGER they looked. gosh that is an incentive as much as anything.

So satuday will be my big once a week weigh in. This was my first week and I can not wait to find out how much i lost. heres the deal, slim fast is not a miracle. I didnt gain this in a week and I am not going to loose it all in a week, at 2 pounds a week that 25 weeks which is a bit more than 6 months! I wont make my goal of thanksgiving unless i up the loss ( ugh! "exercise") I know my evil twin would much rather watch a movie, eat pasta, popcorn and pizza and drink wine, beer, vodka cocktails, but heres the deal- he is getting smaller and I am winning this. Ed, is going to lose 50 pounds, I am on my way to lose 50 pounds, 50 pounds are going to be released into space and I dont care where it goes but it aint going to stick on me anymore. if you think your feel the same, let me know, i need the inspration too!.

CRAP! STAY TUNED! but have no fear , i am going to eat like a really thin person tonight! I will show them...

edsbody — Thu, 27 Aug 2009 21:28:44 GMT

CRAP! STAY TUNED! but have no fear , i am going to eat like a really thin person tonight! I will show them...

Ok 2 days intop it and i feel OK, I hate water still and trying to drink Green Tea more. got up at 6 and walked for a good 30 mins around park, had a great sald for lunch. I can do this!BTW, still off wine, drinks and beer even at that party. i am almost shocked at myself, this is NYC, when have i ever passed up a free drink?! I am feeling maybe this is the kick i needed and slim fast is really easy ( or am I really lazy?) i am much more calorie conscious about everything! i counted out 10 cherries instead of eating a whole pile.

edsbody — Wed, 26 Aug 2009 21:50:21 GMT

Ok 2 days intop it and i feel OK, I hate water still and trying to drink Green Tea more. got up at 6 and walked for a good 30 mins around park, had a great sald for lunch. I can do this!BTW, still off wine, drinks and beer even at that party. i am almost shocked at myself, this is NYC, when have i ever passed up a free drink?! I am feeling maybe this is the kick i needed and slim fast is really easy ( or am I really lazy?) i am much more calorie conscious about everything! i counted out 10 cherries instead of eating a whole pile.

what could be better than that? didnt drink enough water ( I hate that stuff!) but I am going to a birthday party tonight and will not have one drink or dessert. I am going to sip my club soda like it is Dom, and eat my carrot like it is Beluga. I am done with this fat nonsense, damn these skinny people- wait till they see me next year- 364 days from NOW.

edsbody — Mon, 24 Aug 2009 22:16:07 GMT

what could be better than that? didnt drink enough water ( I hate that stuff!) but I am going to a birthday party tonight and will not have one drink or dessert. I am going to sip my club soda like it is Dom, and eat my carrot like it is Beluga.

I am done with this fat nonsense, damn these skinny people- wait till they see me next year- 364 days from NOW.