Hey guys. A day late posting this. I weighed yesterday and.....309, 2lbs lost! I'm glad. Now I am 4 lbs away from where I was. How is everyone doing on this Saturday evening? It's rainy and soggy here. All I want to do is sleep! lol I guess it's better then eat. I have to clean the house & my room now. Atleast it's some kind of exercise.

Hi guys. I'm sorry I went missing again. But I should have let you all know that I was going away this past weekend for my bf's birthday. We left on Friday and came back last night. I went to Chicago/Indiana. And yes, I ate and ate and ate. We went to Ruth Chris' Steakhouse on Sunday night. Porterhouse for two, fried calamari, banana cream pie...OK I'll stop. But you get the point. I actually, somehow, managed to get on the scale this morning to face the music. I'm back at 311. Oh BTW I didn't weigh on Friday. I'm not even going to sugar coat this weekend. I was bad. I really need to find an inner strength and get back on this plan. It is sooo easy to fall off. Today I have been good and I plan to be good for dinner. I want to weigh in on Friday and see where that puts me. I just want to say that you girls are the BEST for checking up on me. I thank god everyday for this community. We all need to support eachother.

Ok I weighed myself this morning and it's 308.5. That's a 3 pound weight GAIN! Why is it soooo easy to gain 3.5 pounds with a blink of an eye and you have to struggle to drop ONE!? The annoying part is I know I was bad. I was bloated all week, craving everything, late nights at the hospital, eating WAY too much candy. But the thing is I was good everyday during the day and I didn't eat cheeseburgers and fries everynight? Why is it that at my size of being ginormous, I have to be perfect to lose anything? I feel like I let everyone down here plus myself. I took big steps forward and now I'm back to where I was a few weeks ago. During the week, right before that moment when you put that piece of candy in your mouth, you feel like "oh well, what's one piece of candy going to do, and plus I don't care. I want it!" Then when you get on the scale is like WHY DID YOU DO THAT!? Needless to say I'm pretty bummed. But what can I do? I can't go backwards and change what I ate. I have to go forward and try, no WILL do better. My other option would be 400 pounds and I don't like that option very much. Oh LORD why does food that's bad for you TASTE SO GOOD!!!!

I'm still here guys. I haven't quit or anything like that. This week has been crazy. My mother is in the hospital, work stuff, bf stuff. Plus on top of that I realized that I never posted the weigh in from LAST week! I gained a 1/2 pound. Probably the McDonalds. Now on top of everything else, another weigh in is tomorrow and it's been that time of the month this whole week. Since it's close to Halloween, all I'm getting at work is candy! How do I resist you Kit Kat? My favorite candy. UGH! Even though they are the fun size, I've lost count at how many I've eaten! I'm scared to go on the scale tomorrow. I'm fine during the day, drinking the shakes, being really good at lunch but then some dinners are crazy due to being in the hospital with my mom. Food from the cafeteria, Tuesday night (well 11:00pm) I had breakfast at the diner, french toast! I have to get back on track with dinner. That's my down fall. Plus I still have yet to get to the gym and with my period my back is KILLING me!

I've been alittle MIA lately. This whole weekend I was sick and stayed home from work on Monday. I'm on anti-biotics. Monday I ate McDonalds. ugh, why is it so good??? Today is 1 month on the diet. Still going strong and still liking the shakes. That's a surprise. I honestly have no idea how the weigh in will go on Friday. I'm mad about that, but I know I have to keep trucking along and not give up. Can't turn back, I've invested way to much into this.