Hi Im 34, and have 2 beautiful daughters and have been with my husband for 12 years now. When i first met my husband i was about 133 and now im about 215 give or take so he seen me thin to heavy to heavier and and now heaviest. I used to care what I looked like, but i put my kids and my husband first and did what a mother and a supporting wife does, little by little i lost me, the most important person to care for. As I got bigger people didnt recogonize me anymore even stop talking to me. I for one didnt care I had my family, and thats all that matter to me. But there was always those momments where I wished if i can only loose some weight, but like always it just never happened. I knew I wasnt healthy and someday it would all catch up to me. I started having high blood pressure, had to get my gall bladder removed, and several other proceduries done due to my gall bladder removal. I started getting mad at myself, putting my self down, because I knew that all that was happening to me was somehow connected to my wieght. I just didnt feel like me anymore, and I missed me so much. Im happy that I found this place with people that i can relate to, and understand my feelings on my level. I hoping to get support as well as giving it, because I know that for all of us, this is going to be a long journey!!
Looking forward to support and share with everyone!!!!!
Today is my first day! Your story made me cry... :( I understand! I am 33 and have 2 girls and was married for 12 yr and then got divorced...which led to me gaining more weight! I was 116 when I met my ex-hubby and grew and grew and now I just hit 300 lbs... I can't believe it. I lost myself a long time ago but now I am ready to find me again. I would love to be your buddy and support you... WE CAN DO THIS!!!! For ourselves, our children and Husbands(hopefully a future one for me:)
Hi Ladies,
I just wanted to let you know we're all in the same boat, some in some aspect or another! I just recently got married and am at my highest weight I've ever been. Days before my now husband and I left to get married (we married in Jamaica, I couldn't face a big "show") I was in tears over the way I would look in my dress and that these pictures would follow us around forever. I can't even bring myself to let family know the video came in.
While it was a beautiful special moment for us, my weight clouded the day on so many levels for me.
We're now talking about having our first child and I am having to explain to him that physically I just cannot do it. @ 5'5" I tip the scales at 247...I can't bear to add anymore weight to that!
So I'm making this commitment to myself, for him, for our future to do this. While I know he loves me any shape any size, he loves me even more when I'm happy. I haven't been truly happy in a very long time. I'm looking forward to winning this! When I start to defeat myself I try to remember "Nothing tastes as good as feeling thin!"
Good luck to both of you!
Fearnot41 I am so sorry to had me you cry, and so sorry to hear what you had to go thru, and beleive me I know just how you feel. But now is our time to regain ourselves I mean hitting rock bottom at least for me, means Im looking up from where Im at so theres no other direction for me go. I would love to be your Buddy and support you thru this long journey!! Thank you for your support now and look forward hearing from you soon.
Jess928 thank you so much for support, again thats why Im so happy I found this place, the support and this whole site I have yet to read is going to help me and Fearnot41 and others so much!! Again thank you ;)
Hello, I am 23 with a 2 year old and have been married for 5 years now. When my husband and I said "I do" I was a small 117 lbs, but 3 months after the wedding I had gained 60 lbs on the other my husband lost 50 lbs. We always made the joke, "he lost it & I found it" when people would look at his driver's license. I am so tired of being fat and unhealthy; I can not keep up with my little girl and that makes it hard to be a fun mom. She wants to go outside and play & all I want to do is sit down. I want the old me back: not fat jiggle, rolls or thunder thighs. When I look in the mirror or at pictures it is so hard to comprehend that the women looking back at me IS me. This is the start of a new month & new me.
Hi, I am new, stated today. I am 275 lbs. Always had to struggle with my weight, but after my husband passed away I just packed the weight on. I really want to lose ,. but have always failed after a few days into it. But I feel more determined this time. This is the first time I have ever reached out. So I am glad I am here, and I would love to help you in your journey. I definately know what you are feeling. Thanks for listening.
I know what you mean all too well that you just want to by you again. I'm 5'4 and weigh 255. When I married, I was around 180. Three kids later, I'm the heaviest I've ever been. I let my weight control me. I don't wear shorts or tank tops in public, I avoid swimming pools or water parks and I avoid, as much as I can, going back home and running into people from high school. I'm so tired of not being able to be free. I've dieted and dieted and dieted. Next year we are suppose to go to a wedding of my husband's best friend, full of people we went to school with and the thought of them seeing how I let myself go terrifies me. I've cried and cried over this wedding and a date hasn't even been set yet. We also are suppose to take our kids to the beach for the first time and the thought of me in a bathing suit is too much! But I guess I had two defining moments in my life recently. One was with my daughter. We were watching a cartoon, and the main character who is skinny started gaining weight and she got really big. My seven year old daughter pointed to her and pointed to me and said we were the same. That hurt a lot, though she didn't realize it. And the other moment was when I saw a picture of myself that my husband took while my back was to him. I did not recognize myself. I've stared at it and stared at it. I just can't believe that that is really me. I certainly don't feel as big as I apparently am. And I'm so tired of the doctor telling me I'm overweight and that I need to loose weight. I know this. I want to loose weight for so many reasons. So here I go again.
I am new to this.. I picked opening this forom first because the statment is what I cry about so often... I am 33, sigle mother of 3. I have lost weight and gained weight and lost... However, I want to loose 150 pounds. I would be myself again.. The one who could play tenis or be full of confedent... I look in the mirror and feel like the ugliest thing around. I cry a lot because people don't treate me human sometimes. My daughters even say things to me. My health is a catch 22 because it is part of why I gained so much weight. I have many health problems and medications have added to the weight problem. One day I just gave up and decided to just live with it. BUT I can't. I can't stand being in my body anymore. This isn't who I am. I want to play with my kids without chest pain. I want to be ab le to run around the feild with them... I want to live again!
My tears of this impresinment are washing my spirit free. I know with help of all of you I may have the suport I have lacked. My ex kept me fat because he likes big girl. Now he isn't part of my life because I don't want to be a 'big girl', but healthy. Thank you for giving me someone to relate too.... I know you can do it! We need to all just stick together and stick to it!